Hello real people.
Work has me beaten pretty near to the point of death. I think it would be really nice to come home at the end of a long day and a long night to a wife and some relatively normal kids, and it would also be nice if there were a lot of fresh fruit. But instead I have a big empty home that creaks all the time, and birds are constantly running into the windows.
Life is pretty lonely nowdays, which is too bad, because I've learned that I like people a great deal, but there are a few things going well.
1. Me and my small brother David are making a house out of walnut and cherry logs. We're ready to put the roof on, which is going to be made of wood shingles. All of the materials are coming out of Grandma's woods. Best of all, I'm not even doing it in order to feel manly or self-suficient or rustic. No sir, this is genuine desire, not the fabricated stuff of unhappiness. I just love my axe and my sledgehammer and my froe, and the occasional fire is also a nice added bonus.
2. I've been reading Grimm's Fairy Tales lately, and it's pretty great. For one thing, the biography in the introduction was brief, but very memorable. My favorite line is this: "In their final years the brothers devoted their energies to completing the German Dictionary but died before reaching the letter G."
I really enjoy the stories too, maybe because I'm just a bizarre little child at heart. But I notice some things in them that seem to be unrelated to the stories where they appear. For example, at the end of Hansel and Grethel, the kids push the witch into the stove, take off with all of her precious stones, and then return to find that their awful stepmother is dead. Their sorrows are all over and they live together with their father in great happiness. Then the story concludes with the line, "My tale is done. There runs a mouse; whoever catches her may make a great, great cap of her fur."
For the most part, I'm totally exhausted, and I'm really just counting down the days until this part of my life is finally over. Sometimes I think that all I need in life is people that I can know and love and pour my life out for. Maybe that's true, but I get the feeling that I'm not the overflowing fountain of love that I sometimes think I am. God is kind to the unthankful and evil. Hopefully he'll teach that to me every minute of the next five weeks.
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